"yet another time"
helloooo there!! :) yup, i'm back from the encounter camp :D I HAD MANY FUN THERE :P okay, shall continue with the rest of the posts now :)
so, on thursday was the last day of thinking MAPs program, it's a Math program btw. ya anyway, fatin and i kept on talking about some ... people. i mean like, WE CAN'T CONTINUE PRETENDING LIKE WE LIKE HER. ok lah, i do treat her as a good friend. but!! i can't take care of her fragile heart anymore.
WE have feelings too. and she keeps on saying she's emotional but heck, like want attention so much yo? okay. skip skip. (ANYWAY, SOMEHOW OR RATHER, SHE'S A COPYCAT!!!)
ENCOUNTER CAMP!! - 04/05/10 Friday
so at 8am i reached huiwen's house and surprisingly, SHE'S NOT READY! she was the one who asked me to go early okay. ya so anyway, we reached church about 8.30am and slacked at the playground till about 9am :)
then proceeded to the chapel to meet the rest and slacked again as we were all tired and sleepy. yawns. yeah okay. then it's worship time! :) i love the songs, so sweet and sentimental :) after that was ministry time and it was the first time i went for author call, if that's what you spell / call it :)
yeap, it wasn't THAT scary after all, or at least like what i've expected. hahahaha. anyway, skip till clinic session. i was the first for my group and the "doctor" is -idk what to call her- sheila tan :)
i love the clinic session. it's when you tell them all your problems and stuffs like that. and trust me, i cried my hearts out. i told her about my family la.. like how my parents favors my sisters. and how rude and sinful i was to my grandmother last time.:(
and she explained to me stuff i didn't really know. :). but it sort of made me cry a little harder. she said, "ya.. you know, being the smallest is always the cute cute one, being the oldest is like good good one. so middle?" oh well.
but i feel really good and my feelings are less bottled up after sharing these hurtful incidents.
skip skip skip. another SERMON + MINISTRY TIME! :D now it'a about our fathers. and this really touched me ALOT that i cried again. why did i cry? read on :) yeah, so pastor Daniel was telling us about his story of how his and his father's relationship is.
and. he only heard his father saying "i love you" to him when he is drunked.
and he told me about a letter he received a few years ago about a girl. so this girl is like he's abused or smth. and to cover up her father's fault, he used monetary way. what the heck right? -____-
ya so, when i see huiwen crying, i started crying. i know her reasons. so it's like, she has been suffering for years. i have a good family. it's just a matter of favoritism. why should i be sad? i should appreciate my parents more.
emelyn saw me crying and she prayed for me. i wanted to go for the author call again but i was scared :( anyway, i was reminded, not only at the sermon but during the clinic session, that whenever you feel unloved, there is always God who loves you endlessly! :)
SLEEPY TIME!! :D
well, all the girls, including our cell leaders, had to sleep in 1 big airconditioned (thank God) room. it was kinda annoying cos some annoying people are just inconsiderate + we have to off the lights early!! :( not that i can't sleep without the lights, but it's that i can sleep faster with the lights.. huhuu..
was suppose to wake up at 745am but the three crazies woke up at 700am and i was woken up by them .____. I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP LAH!!! see lah, instead of killing my eyebags, you guys made me add on to it :(
oh and had another round of author call and i went up again (got problem mah?) and ohmygosh, i cried again :( oh forget to mention, when i cried last night, THANK YOU AWESOME PEEPS who were there :) and Pearlicia!! she gave me a warm hug! :)
okay! :D done! didn't take many pictures, cos i can't be with my camera all the time right?! i try to find the pictures YeoMei (one of the cell leader) took :) this camp is definitely worth the many time and sacrifices!
and she explained to me stuff i didn't really know. :). but it sort of made me cry a little harder. she said, "ya.. you know, being the smallest is always the cute cute one, being the oldest is like good good one. so middle?" oh well.
but i feel really good and my feelings are less bottled up after sharing these hurtful incidents.
skip skip skip. another SERMON + MINISTRY TIME! :D now it'a about our fathers. and this really touched me ALOT that i cried again. why did i cry? read on :) yeah, so pastor Daniel was telling us about his story of how his and his father's relationship is.
and. he only heard his father saying "i love you" to him when he is drunked.
and he told me about a letter he received a few years ago about a girl. so this girl is like he's abused or smth. and to cover up her father's fault, he used monetary way. what the heck right? -____-
ya so, when i see huiwen crying, i started crying. i know her reasons. so it's like, she has been suffering for years. i have a good family. it's just a matter of favoritism. why should i be sad? i should appreciate my parents more.
emelyn saw me crying and she prayed for me. i wanted to go for the author call again but i was scared :( anyway, i was reminded, not only at the sermon but during the clinic session, that whenever you feel unloved, there is always God who loves you endlessly! :)
SLEEPY TIME!! :D
well, all the girls, including our cell leaders, had to sleep in 1 big airconditioned (thank God) room. it was kinda annoying cos some annoying people are just inconsiderate + we have to off the lights early!! :( not that i can't sleep without the lights, but it's that i can sleep faster with the lights.. huhuu..
was suppose to wake up at 745am but the three crazies woke up at 700am and i was woken up by them .____. I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP LAH!!! see lah, instead of killing my eyebags, you guys made me add on to it :(
oh and had another round of author call and i went up again (got problem mah?) and ohmygosh, i cried again :( oh forget to mention, when i cried last night, THANK YOU AWESOME PEEPS who were there :) and Pearlicia!! she gave me a warm hug! :)
okay! :D done! didn't take many pictures, cos i can't be with my camera all the time right?! i try to find the pictures YeoMei (one of the cell leader) took :) this camp is definitely worth the many time and sacrifices!