Sunday, June 20, 2010, 3:06 AM
"wall of memories"
Okay. Imma do some ranting here. But before i continue, it's Father's Day! :) So i'm gonna write something about it.
Happy Father's Day! :) I'm not very close to my father as he doesn't stay with me, but you know.. he showers love and concern to everyone.. I can't say much now. Although you could be a REAL annoyance sometimes, i love him! :D
Okay. Whatever. Crappish enough i know.
Anyway. RANTINGS. Warning given.
"Tis better to be loved and lost, than never to have loved at all."
Alfred, Lord Tennyson
The Story behind It: These lines are a part of In Memoriam, which Tennyson wrote after the death of his beloved friend Arthur Hallam. Tennyson had met Hallam in 1829, when they were both students at Trinity College, Cambridge. Hallam's sudden death in 1833 threw Tennyson into a tormented and near-suicidal state. In Memoriam was not published until 1850, the same year that Tennyson was chosen poet laureate of England. Samuel Butler paraphrased the saying in The Way of All Flesh (1903): " 'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all."
It may be hard to comprehend this quote, but it's amazing how much it could relate to my life. Sort of.
You know I've been dwelling so much on the past about how my friend and I were together? Well yeah, now that i've lost it, it's brought me so much misery. You know that feeling, when you lost something really precious.. It's depressing.
".... than never to have loved at all."
Rant 2:
I have many weaknesses. I have many bad side of me.
Paroxysm of anger and emotions.
Well, too bad I can't control it. And i've been trying to contain and withstand it, especially to YOU. I can't stand your biased-ness. You've been a stuck up bitch to the eldest one.
AND.
When you both fight. COME TO ME LAH! :D COMEEEEE. -_________- GEEEZ. That's why I like to lose temper at YOUYOUYOU.
No, it doesn't really hurt that time. But the memory did. Remember when we were all immature and fought just because of talking back about each other? Yes, that did.
I just want somebody to love me for who I am, and not judge my weakness. That's it.