"when it was me"
weheartit.com hahahaha hellooo. (i have no new picture, so i took it from somewhere else.) so.. this morning, i woke up at like 6am then head off to meet huiwen at macs. mbu sent me there bianca and some brainy-ass, cos they're going for math olympiad, so it is SO NOT an insult, it's fact!!
aww. bianca saw ahem ahem, and well........ -air-talking-you-know-what-bianca- ! xD so went all the way to radin mas primary and after about 30mins, tadahh, we finally reach. we thought the school was very small, somehow, NO OFFENCE. so when we stepped in, it was somehow at first, BUT, what proves us wrong is that they have insanely 6 storeys!! nuts or what?? like which other school got 6 levels? mine only got 4 leh! xD
so. yeah :D then the competition begin.. bianca did well for the first round. but, unfortunately, she didn't manage to get in to the 3rd round :( poor bianca, it's okay, at least you've tried! :))
so then parents picked me up and went to funan. ate at qiji and mom bought her new dslr -.- waste money! :P kidding ahs. so yeah then blablabla.
anyway, lessons i have learned a sometime ago..
＂你也有感情．＂
never bottle up your feelings. never forever listen to your friend's stories. tell them about yours, or else you're just not treasuring yourself. pick up the courage to cut into your friend's stories and tell yours, if you really need to say, and when your friend is forever talking about hers. pick up the courage to be concerned. we're humans, we need attention too.
and when you're feeling down, hold on. let the littlest positive thing make you move on. things can't change you, but you can change things. when the world seems to hate you, never lose hope. don't even break down. everything will be fine. and everybody will realise sooner or later.
just believe. believe in yourself. if you say everything will be fine, it will.
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you know the after-competition feeling? like i mean, when you've stayed long hours for a damn competition, oftenly. and finally the day comes, and end? and the WHOLE THING ended? no more practices, no more fun, no more feeling nervous or stress? yea, i feel that everytime.
it was like last year and i'm STILL dwelling on it till now. :'( i miss it. i miss the people, i always fight and argued with, the one that kept on insulting me, spread rumours about me. i miss the fun we had, in spite of the countless fights we had. i miss the nervousness we had, when we're going next and keep on wishing each others good luck.
i miss the room, the one which i always go on fridays and stayed till 5. i miss the stress, the rebel, the noise, the voices, the bully, and everything. i know i said you guys are annoying, but seriously, you're one of the best people that made me happy. i was really afraid of losing it. but i lost it anyway. now i'm afraid we won't even be able to go through this. :((((((
that's why sometimes, i'd REALLY like to rewind the time :'(