Wednesday, November 4, 2009, 4:12 AM
"FMLFMLFML"
Ok, as you can see my title there,
fuck my life, no, it isn't a good news. But well, I have a good news too, firstly,
I came back from school still in 1 piece. Secondly,
I survived school. Next,
I passed my Chinese! Then,
My trip to Korea is canceled due to the terrible cases of H1N1 in there. I don't know whethere that's a good news or not as I'm feeling a little upset & disappointed. Gahh.
I am super pissed, frustrated, annoyed, disappointed, upset, angry, miserable, emotional and all that you can say. I passed my Math, and really passed. Yes, 53.5. Oh I suck BIG TIME. I hate myself. I really feel like killing myself right now. Somebody please shoot a gun on me.
I let down everybody who had faith and confidence in me. I thought I could do better and score well. But maybe, my effort wasn't enough, and true enough, i didn't deserve it, I don't even think i deserve to pass.
Emotionally hurt, I broke down in school, as well as at home just now, several times. I lost my appetite and acted like nothing has happened. I didn't tell my parents yet as i had to confirm the end and total mark first. But I knew, they will be disappointed.
I don't know what am I suppose to do now. I never felt this way before. I'd be the most contented person if I get the highest, 92. Seeing her enjoying her pride with compliments and praises.
I'M SUPER SAD.
ANGRY.
DISAPPOINTED.
FML.
I HATE MYSELF.
Passed my chinese by 1 mark. It's okay for me already, since I didn't expect to even pass.